Why did I pick that post title? Honestly, it just came to me when I decided to write about this topic below. I think women are fragile yet strong! Just that. We are fragile in our emotions. They get the best of us. They consume us sometimes. They break us at times and they pick us up sometimes too. Yet, we are stronger because of this. Our emotions make us a strong force too. We have strength in many areas... mentally, physically, emotionally, verbally, etc. How we handle our emotions and strength is what makes us.
I had bought the book, by Lysa Terkeurst, Unglued a year ago and have not made it very far. How far have I read? I made it to the third chapter on a few different occasions. Yes, chapter three is all I get to time and time again! I get that far then get busy and put it down not to pick it up again for months then I start over and stop in the same spot. Well, I picked up the book tonight and headed to the jacuzzi where I made myself read the first three chapters AGAIN to refresh; although, I knew it word for word at this point! I did that so I didn't miss anything. Those first few chapters lead you into what the books about and I wanted to be reminded and reflect that I am not alone in this issue. I think every time in the past I get stuck because I am busy - busy - busy and come unglued in life situations and when I walk by the book I don't want to face that fact... That's me! I mean how many of us hold it together after four hours of sleep the night before and by mid day we have a screaming child, the phones ringing, the house is dirty, dinner is boiling over on the stove, and the dog is using the bathroom in the floor... ALL AT THE SAME TIME! This time I am moving past that stopping point of chapter three. I don't want to become the woman of crazy emotions going all over the place. Heck, its hard to do at times when your hormones are highly off track from your miscarriage and
after two years of dealing with that and trying to get medicine to work
in regulating it and nothing is working so far that you would think I
could adjust to my new hormonal self causing more mixed emotion... but I haven't. That last long
probably miss-punctuated sentence is not my excuse but its my REALITY. I want to feel balance and grace in my actions not just some days, but everyday! I want to control my emotions not have them control me. I want to be able to react like a woman of grace all the time like I do half of the time. I can hold it together great some days and I feel confident and accomplished. Others I ask - How am I making it day to day - How much more does God think I can juggle - Why are my emotions all over the place - Is this really that bad why can't I shake this... Are you with me yet? Its hard but it can be easy too. We have to DECIDE to react to things differently. This I am working on! I am praying. I am praying some more and digging into devotionals, Gods word, etc. Reading this wonderful woman of Christ opens up about her struggle in this area and how God helped her manage it is encouraging.
I am now going to face this book and see what some Godly views are to help in "making wise choices in the midst of raw emotions." (excerpt quote from Unglued)
If you are reading this, lets make a pact not to let minds fill up which causes us to become more fragile. Give room to stay so strong in all situations. To be able to think and decide to react in a way that is pleasing to The Lord. Let's take a step back and say no to things coming onto our plate, let's lay down on the couch while our kid(s) sleep to refresh our bodies, let's open the Bible or devotion any quiet moment we get, let's order take out one night to give ourselves a break from cooking and so on.
I am a woman of fragile strength. Are you?